I haven’t been on here in months. I haven’t had time to be.
I’m on fall break right now and I feel like I’m drowning. Things are pretty good, but I’m balancing so much. I have to apply to college and apply for scholarships and I don’t even know how to or what I want to do. I could be a photographer, but I want a career; something that has a set payday. I’m so terrified of slipping into debt.
But, then there’s the other side. If I chose to be a photographer, I probably wouldn’t go to college. Because, what can they teach me that I can’t learn off of an online site or a youtube tutorial? But, if I flat-out chose college, then later on realized that photography is the only thing I can actually do, I’ve wasted money, and I’m already dick-deep in student loan debt.
It scares me.
I don’t want to be stuck at home after high school, either. I want to get out. I feel like I’m thinking realistically, but I also don’t know how I’ll get there.
I’ll figure it all out in due time, I’m sure.
I’m thinking about writing journal entries on here again, because writing is nice.